The fact that he cannot be alone, or be faithful, is just sad... and gross. He doesn't understand how when I see that, how it makes everything even worse. If he were alone, it would make me see him in a different, better light.
He asked me if I thought he was weak-minded. I was shocked that he asked me that, because that is exactly how other men have described men that lose control and hit women, and it's spot on. Guess he was thinking it too.
All I wanted to do that day was talk through the incident in the truck. I said "sit down, we have to talk about this, because this is not normal", but he couldn't even discuss it without becoming violent. And here we are. Once again.